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Thriller | The Things I Want To Say But Can’t | Carla Christian

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We’re delighted to be sharing Elena’s thoughts about The Things I Want to Say but Can’t by Carla Christian on the Love Books Tours.

Book cover for The Things I Wan't To Say But Can't by Carla Christian

The Things I Want To Say But Can’t by Carla Christian is available to purchase in digital and paperback formats.

‘A lifetime of endings, a million goodbyes. None of them right. It’s funny what you remember when you’ve got nothing else to think about. All those things you should’ve said while you had the chance. You never learned, did you? You never, ever learned.’

Belle has a habit of losing things. Her friends. Her lovers. Her mind.

Everything ends eventually, or at least that’s what life has taught her. But what if everything she lost came back again? What if she got a chance to finally have her say? To face her past. To put things right.

Second chances aren’t easy when memories are all you have. So, when Belle invites the nightmares of her past back in, is she willing to deal with the consequences? Because maybe, just maybe, this time she’s getting what she deserves.


The Things I Want To Say But Can’t tells the story of Isobel (Belle) who has had an unhappy, abusive childhood and has experienced trauma in her teenage years and subsequently has spent her whole life wondering why everyone leaves her.

Now married with two children her past begins to unravel and so does Belle. The book charts a woman’s spiral into despair and explores the reasons for it. When she hits rock bottom you are left wondering whether she will give in to her demons or fight back and forgive herself for the mistakes she’s made.

Her guilt threatens to take to derail her and the author leads the reader down so many different paths you’re unsure of how it will end. And you don’t find out until the very last page. I haven’t had such an emotional response to a book for a long time and the whole story was simply breathtaking.

The language in this book is so descriptive. The way in which the author writes about the inner workings of Belle’s mind as it deteriorates makes it so suffocating. I was completely immersed in the book because of that.

It was heavy and at times very dark – themes of physical and mental abuse, eating disorder, self harm, addiction and suicide sit alongside and contrast against those of family dynamics, relationships, motherhood and love.

I finished this book in one day it was so absorbing! 

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Carla Christian lives in the Lake District in the North of England. A busy working mum of two teenagers, she has a passion for writing, art and travel, and these interests have been a part of her for as long as she can remember. 

Constantly inspired by both the good and the bad in the world around her, she spends much of her time creating in one way or another; be it painting canvases for the blank walls of her new home, sketching pictures to capture memories of the many travel adventures she’s been lucky enough to go on, baking fantastical cakes with her daughter, or writing endless beginnings to a million unfinished stories.

The Things I Want To Say But Can’t is her first novel.


I've been blogging about my interests at Jera's Jamboree for 9+ years. My love of reading, crocheting, being out in nature and positive psychology are all things that help me unwind from my role as an Inclusion Lead in a primary school.

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